despite...
enrollment day. my patience got tested. thankfully, i passed. with friends to chat with, i passed. nyahaha. *bleh* spent three hours in front of the pc. got nothing to do. can't sleep. help. honestly, i'm not in the mood to start the second semester. not yet, at least. *lafs*
anyway, sem break was good. went through a lot of things. overall, i felt i didn't have a real break. *whew* time flies really fast. and i don't know where my thoughts seem to be coming from right now. sometimes, things get really complicated i just wish i'd evaporate. mom has had a lot of probs too. and the pressure on me is taking its toll. almost everybody's expecting so much. nothing new. sometimes you just have to accept things the way they are. but it's not a bad thing really. the expectations, i mean. the people are kind of one of the best reasons in my life. deep inside me, i know that no matter how hard i would try to win everybody's love, i know that no one can please everybody. i am not perfect but i strive hard to become a better person. okay. i seem to be blabbing again. usual. and oh...lemme share an excerpt from my so-called journal. found it cute. the best i've written, i guess. my pathetic attempts on being a writer. *lafs* again, i didn't know where it came from. it just went out. i wrote this after a day of being reminded of my prayers -- which, Astagfirullah-- i seem to be not completing and after receiving a text message from a friend.
"Life is short, live it to the fullest. True. But we often misinterpret this stuff. So we do things even if we know that they are bad. Or at least at the back of our minds, something tells us its just wrong. But because we are driven by that passion and thirst to live a full life, we do them anyway. And it's a stupid thing. Indeed, life can be short. But it's not a reason we should be going astray anytime we like. Who would want to leave behind a life misled? Nobody. Because this would mean a life half-lived. The wonders of the world are fleeting. In time, they all fade away. They may give you a moment of joy perhaps. But they don't give you the forever-abiding kind. Only Faith can give us that. It's the ultimate life support machine. We'd say if we hold on too much, it's gonna be pretty boring stuff -- too sentimental, too difficult, too different...and at times when we fail at things, it's gonna hurt...so we waver because we blame. But we forget that we do our own mistakes. We are guided but we fail to follow. All because we listen more to ourselves than to Him. Commitment may be hard. But it involves a process. And that process starts when we open ourselves to the truth...The only way to make life fair is to keep RIGHT."
and oh..aside from journal entries. i got busy with photoshop too. *squeals* i missed doing this since our PC was in the r.i.p-state. *lafs* i got the pics posted on my friendster. i can't post them right here...for security purposes?! *lafs* i'll post them when i learn how to lock pictures in html. *winx* oh well, got to go. so late already. tc evw1. goodnite.
anyway, sem break was good. went through a lot of things. overall, i felt i didn't have a real break. *whew* time flies really fast. and i don't know where my thoughts seem to be coming from right now. sometimes, things get really complicated i just wish i'd evaporate. mom has had a lot of probs too. and the pressure on me is taking its toll. almost everybody's expecting so much. nothing new. sometimes you just have to accept things the way they are. but it's not a bad thing really. the expectations, i mean. the people are kind of one of the best reasons in my life. deep inside me, i know that no matter how hard i would try to win everybody's love, i know that no one can please everybody. i am not perfect but i strive hard to become a better person. okay. i seem to be blabbing again. usual. and oh...lemme share an excerpt from my so-called journal. found it cute. the best i've written, i guess. my pathetic attempts on being a writer. *lafs* again, i didn't know where it came from. it just went out. i wrote this after a day of being reminded of my prayers -- which, Astagfirullah-- i seem to be not completing and after receiving a text message from a friend.
"Life is short, live it to the fullest. True. But we often misinterpret this stuff. So we do things even if we know that they are bad. Or at least at the back of our minds, something tells us its just wrong. But because we are driven by that passion and thirst to live a full life, we do them anyway. And it's a stupid thing. Indeed, life can be short. But it's not a reason we should be going astray anytime we like. Who would want to leave behind a life misled? Nobody. Because this would mean a life half-lived. The wonders of the world are fleeting. In time, they all fade away. They may give you a moment of joy perhaps. But they don't give you the forever-abiding kind. Only Faith can give us that. It's the ultimate life support machine. We'd say if we hold on too much, it's gonna be pretty boring stuff -- too sentimental, too difficult, too different...and at times when we fail at things, it's gonna hurt...so we waver because we blame. But we forget that we do our own mistakes. We are guided but we fail to follow. All because we listen more to ourselves than to Him. Commitment may be hard. But it involves a process. And that process starts when we open ourselves to the truth...The only way to make life fair is to keep RIGHT."
and oh..aside from journal entries. i got busy with photoshop too. *squeals* i missed doing this since our PC was in the r.i.p-state. *lafs* i got the pics posted on my friendster. i can't post them right here...for security purposes?! *lafs* i'll post them when i learn how to lock pictures in html. *winx* oh well, got to go. so late already. tc evw1. goodnite.
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