juz a little update

hi! hi! hi! *grins* well, well, well...just finished our paper defense in Philo. well, they may think me maldita *lafs* which is half-bothering me because for one, a good number already knows that i am maldita and two...heck! i'm not that bad kaya. *hrmf*lafs* so, peace. it was just a defense but what i said was true and the anger, confusion, wobbling of knees were REAL!!! shux. *bleh* you see, you see...this is what you get when you are loaded with exams, reports and papers...blogging?! this one's more fun than studying, anyway. it's like talking to yourself but having people all over the world get a piece of your daily life. *bleh* not that i like announcing...it's just a bit comforting, blogging away...but nothing personal really--the kind which i would rather keep to myself and myself alone. so... *bleh* i miss this one too. *grr* those school stuff!!! *lafs* okay. i'm sort of a jumble right now. everytime i get to my dorm room...aah! help! i wanna vacation! but i just can't have one. no, not right now. still have to get over this and i can have that super big real grin on my face...weeh! can't wait. and oh...speaking of can't wait. i can't wait for Ramadhan. *smiles* weeh. i'm so excited. it's such a nice feeling to be closer...hmm...ain't it? ... *smiles* okay, believe it or not...this is me. farhanna mapandi. yepyep. the girl who grew up in a christian community, who does not know the maranao dialect that well, who hides herself from relatives, who was never exposed to islam, who ran away crying when an Ustadz scolded her for wearing that elephant sleeveless top to Madrasah...whew. this is me. and i'm trying to be better. weeh! there's a lot more story behind all these and well...hmm...i can't share all of it detail by detail but i'm trying my best to tell you how wonderful all of these make me feel. really!!! even papa called when i forwarded a very Islamic message to him and sheesh...i'm so happy when i heard that "i'm-proud-of-you" tone. weeeh! i'm finally good. *lafs* anyway, got to go. 'til next time! *smiles*